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... until you become one.

to my children:
you will never know how becoming a parent will make you stronger, until you are one.

la luna,

until you become a mother, you will not know how finger tips on your feet can be lengthened and be very flexible to reach things in the corner of the bed be it a pen, a warming oil, a hand towel, anything bigger or smaller, ... just to keep your baby calm while you are nursing her.

until you become a mother, you do not know you can do juggling until you put your clothes on while nursing.

you will also not know that you are even smarter than einstein until you realise you can easily tweak your brain to distract your baby and sneakily take things off her hands just to avoid her from choking or get suffocated.

until you become a mother, you do not know how hurt it is to see your kids turn back on you. or pick their friends over you. and until you become a mother, you do not know that you are a superhero because you will always do anything to protect your children.

until you become a mother, you do now know that you do not need a time capsule. because all you want is the time to stay still so you will have much time to watch your children grow and be with them more.


until you become a father, you do not know that to be capable is much more important than to be the best. by the time, you will know that no one is perfect and the best thing in the world is to be beside your children when they need you, and you are capable to help them.

until you become a father, you will not know how eager you can be to get better jobs, get more money, and so you can provide all the luxuries your children needs.

you will also get the point why lying is never a good thing.

only until you become a father, you will know what worry is. to see your half-part is not getting back from school or to see your daughter seeing a guy.

to both of you,
until you become a parent, you will not realise what your parents say all along are true.
until you become a parent, you will not realise how strong you can be,  and i am sure, you two are going to be strong. and stronger.
and until you become a parent; you will not know how big my love for you both.


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