Sunday, January 17, 2016

Doubled visions.

I experienced the double visions lately. A little accident occurred and needed to have a doctor put a medicated soft lense to heal the cornea faster. Only for a few days.
Hopefully,
my eye gets better,
visions get clearer,
and I am becoming wiser.

Hahaha.

And then I felt funny. I felt everything indeed has double standards.
About what the norms says, what we believe in, what we feel, what we think, nothing is really fixed anyways.

And then I felt the world is slowing down. Suddenly I have much time to do many things. To pray longer, to take care what I have left behind, to say hi to an old friends, to be eager to wait for my kids to do my instructions (if you don't want to call them 'orders' ha ha!).

And then I felt lucky for my life. I felt so blessed surrounded by people who loves me and their persistence to stick around.

Alhamdulillah.


Thursday, January 07, 2016

Everyone is facing a battle we don't know.

Pagi hari waktu mau berangkat kerja, sebenarnya badan udah ngilu-ngilu enggak enak dari malamnya. Tapi, teman-teman bilang itu cuma sindrom kerja. It happens all the time. Khususnya, setiap habis liburan. Padahal, di kerjaan ini aku cuma dikontrak 10 hari. Masa iya masih harus punya sindrom juga, padahal udah libur 2 tahun?

Briefing pun berjalan lancar. Alhamdulillah koneksi internet hari ini bersahabat. Telecon dengan 5 negara enggak menemui gangguan apapun selain gangguan konsentrasi; karena team leader di ujung sana mukanya mirip banget sama matt damon. Sigh, ... aren't i too old for this hahaha.

Asik-asik kerja, badan tiba-tiba menggigil. Kirain cuma masalah ac aja. Dengan malu hati, dikeluarinlah wind breaker yang biasa dipake naik ojek jadi penghangat tubuh di ruangan itu. Tentunya, ... enggak stylish banget. Warna turquoise gonjreng juga bikin orang nengok dan bertanya "kedinginan???" ... "Bingiiiiiiits" jawab aku.

Jam 4 sore, udah bener-bener enggak tahan lagi. Segera manggil kamen rider kesayangan alias bang iwan ojek yang untungnya, segera datang. Karena enggak tahan dengan dinginnya kantor, akhirnya aku memilih untuk nunggu di halte pinggir jalan aja. Yap, masih dengan pakaian lengkap dong. Udahlah pakai kaos tangan panjang, long vest, plus wind breaker.

Bang Iwan pun ngebut, demi mencapai apotik terdekat dari rumah untuk beli obat. Di kepala yang udah berat banget ini plus ditambah beban helm, udah jelas mau beli apa. Obat dewa aku cuma cefixime dan pantozol.

Begitu sampai apotik, tanpa lepas helm aku langsung lari ke kasir penerimaan resep. Tapi di sana ada bapak tua yang lagi galau memilih obat. Demi rasa hormat karena dia udah datang duluan, aku tunggu dengan sabar. Bapak itu banyak tanya-tanya, salah satunya bertanya tentang obat platogrik. Aku terhenyak. Oh, itu kan obatnya mamah. Dari situ aku langsung menguping.

Rupanya, platogrik terlalu mahal buatnya. Mungkin, harus dikonsumsi jangka panjang jadi harus dipikirkan konsistensinya. Kemudian si bapak bertanya tentang isi, miligram, merk lain, alternatif ini dan itu. Menelfon, konfirmasi ini dan itu, ada kali setengah jam. Sementara kepala udah beraaat banget. Tapi bapak itu mengingatkan sama orang tuaku juga. Mungkin, eh ... pastinya, ini yang terjadi juga sama mereka. Sakit di masa tua, sedih banget rasanya. Harus mengkonsumsi obat jangka panjang yang sudah enggak lagi ditanggung kantor. Enggak terasa tiba-tiba malah jadi nangis. Rasa amarah dan ketidaksabaran tiba-tiba hilang aja gitu.

I was totally sick. I had a fever for 39,6. I felt bad. But I thank god, I did not make myself even worse by getting angry for the old man. Indeed, everyone is facing a battle we don't know.

Just be nice.
Hope I can always be a nice person. A nice daughter.


Anak perempuan antar ayah ke dokter. Rapinya si ayah.

Anak perempuan antar ibu ke dokter. Pakai kaos kaki warna warni. 


Sunday, January 03, 2016

Quote

2016 has just begun, I picked up a quote which I believe gonna be my best quote for 2016.
My friend wrote this for his wife on facebook. 


"Do you have band aid? 
My knees scraped falling for you." 

Saturday, January 02, 2016

2015.

I had a cheeky life in 2015, and I thank God for that.
Not really peachy, but even if there was hassles; I think I have forgotten all the problems that occurred and managed to get by anyway.

However, the cheeky life can be highlighted in some points:

2015 was the year of finding jewels in high school. 
I met my extracurricular friends and did a reunion. It was funny to have the love story among us finally revealed. great. The reunion went warm and sweet and full of laughter as we came with our kids and acted out like we were still in high school.

Life also happened to let me find my besties, also from high school, back in to a whatsapp group. It happened to be a support system for us. One is a lawyer, one is a fashion designer and a beauty editor, one is an ex banker and is now having her own cakery, one is an odapus volunteer and, ... me. It was great to have so many different point of views when discuss one particular problem. And I realised it once again, that every one is facing a battle we do not know. That my life is much much much luckier than anybody else.

Alhamdulillah.

2015 was the year of holiday. 
Our family had three holidays this year and we managed to take Nini and Aki to two of the journeys. Not a luxurious holiday; but they were enough. Enough to make us happy and recharged.

2015 was the year of trying things I never had before. 
Never came up my mind to watch korean dramas or watch the Twilight saga. I felt ridiculous, but it was not bad afterall. Still downloading more dramas up to this day hahaha.

2015 was the year grieving.
When Luna was about two years old, she starts having undefined fever like... almost every month. Despite of all the good things happened, half of 2015 was spent for being worry as well. We went for doctor hopping and hopefully, gladly, we have found the best one for now.

Malicca lost his eyang too. It was one of the saddest moment in his life that I realized he is such an introvert and sensitive kid.

All in all, 2015 was so humble and content. I think it is good for me to keep the three points for 2016. And to add with: be more productive.

Happy new year, everyone!

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