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Malicca, you are my 'malaika'

Malaikat

Malaikatku mungkin tidak sepintar manusia seusianya. Ia tidak sempurna, dan seringkali berbuat semau-maunya. Kadang ia berbohong, untuk menutupi kesalahannya. Atau, hanya karena merasa takut kepada manusia-manusia yang lebih besar dan lebih pintar darinya. Kadang, apapun pertanyaan yang diajukan kepadanya; ia menjawab "Tidak tahu." Antara benar-benar tidak tahu atau supaya cepat saja dan tidak ingin berlama-lama ditanya.
Tapi malaikatku selalu ada. Ia menemaniku di saat-saat susahku. Di saat-saat sendiriku. Jemarinya yang mungil pernah menghapus air mataku saat ia tak sengaja meleleh di pipiku. Bahkan jiwanya yang berani pernah membela seorang wanita tua yang dihardik oleh kakek. Dan hatinya yang besar, yang tak menyisakan dendam bagaimanapun kami manusia melukainya.
Bagi sebagian manusia, hal yang dilakukan malaikatku hanyalah hal yang biasa.
Saat ini, aku mengandung lagi di dalam rahimku Dan malaikatku membuktikan sekali lagi bahwa ialah yang paling bahagia menyambut …

Suddenly...

There are 9 more rabbits in our house.
Oh, well ....
You can read the complete story here



Have faith

Whoever found the phrase "as easy as 1, 2, 3 or a, b, c"... he or she is wrong. Teaching how to write, to read and counting, are not easy. Let alone of the stress when we know other kids in her / his age, already read aloud. But don't ever let them put you in despair. Have a faith, that every kid has their own phase.
It took me a big fight with my conservative environment who could not stop asking my son "You are five, can you read yet?" or "Can you count to a hundred?" or "One plus one equals to?" My son being my son, he only shrug his shoulder and leave. My argument those days would be "When he starts reading is not important, what important is what his readings are."
Well, you can guess that my argument was not enough.
It is the era of child oriented learning based. If we take a mirror and see our reflection, seriously, do you feel satisfied with the way you brought up? the way you learn things at school? do you realize their future …

The book of fourteenth

Quite draggy, but it was  getting interesting after having it half read.
"What makes life is hell and hell is hellish, is expectation."  - Maddy Spencer, 13 y.o, the hell newbie -

She makes me laugh

Me:
Jadi ya ... Titan udah punya pacar belum?

Titan:
Dimana? di sekolah yang sekarang?

Me:
Iya.

Titan:
Kalau di sekolah yang sekarang, enggak ada. Di sekolah dulu tuh ada.

Me:
Siapa?

Titan:
Ada, namanya Putri Yogi.

Me:
O, ya? Ah, bunda pernah denger sih ... masih ya sama yang itu? Emang kenapa sih suka banget sama Putri Yogi?

Titan:
She's funny bunda. She makes me laugh.

Me:
kok bisa?

Titan:
Iya. Abis Putri kalo pake bedak tuh belepotan mukanya. Jadi lucu.

Me:
Oalaaaah

Titan:
Iya, jadinya Titan ketawa kalo ngeliat. Kalau di sekolah yang sekarang, engga ada yang belepotan bedaknya, jadi enggak ada yang bikin Titan ketawa.

Me:
*Dalam hati* ... ya ampun ... jadi semua orang tuh sama yah. Udah fitrah kalau kita pengen pendamping yang bikin kita bahagia. Makasih ya Titan udah ngajarin Bunda :)

Mango Float

For another potluck party in the office. And like any other potluck I attended in my previous office,  mango float is my signature. 
Peep the recipe here

Black Hole

Don't let the name fool you. Black hole is anything but the empty space.  It is a super-massive star that goes off, loses its gravity and falls to the end of nowhere.  It sucks everything around it.  It is pitch black, not ever a light can get through.  It wiped off its trace, then it is gone.
Have you ever feel being like the dead star?
On a one fine day, you suddenly lost your gravity and fall to the deepest ground.  Being sucked and sucks everything around you.  So deep you will lost your breath and falls deeper and deeper and deeper. You go down under to the bottomless you don't know where you are, what to do, what to feel. Fading out.
To me, black hole comes in a form of a test pack.

























A letter to you

I named you Malicca. Means you are the greatest gift ever from the Mightiest of all, Allah.
I named you Titan, one of 53 Saturn's moon and the largest. The only thing in the Milky Way that has atmosphere, beside earth. You are the earth in its primordial days, freezed and awaiting to form.
In Orphic ways, you are the ancestor of the human race. Zeus struck you with lightning and you burnt to ashes. From the ashes, a man was formed.

In a simpler way, you are a hope. From the Almighty.

This is my first letter to you, and might be not the only one. This is my first letter after you sent me so many many letters you slipped underneath my door. Your letters with your drawing inside them. With so many heart shapes, your name and my name.

In this letter, I want to say you thanks. For everything. For every little power you gave me. For every reasons you made for me to keep going and keep dreaming. When the doctor said you were impossible to happen because of your tiny 14mm egg source, you were …

A letter to Malicca

I named you Malicca. Means you are the greatest gift ever from the Mightiest of all, Allah.
I named you Titan, one of 53 Saturn's moon and the largest. The only thing in the Milky Way that has atmosphere, beside earth. You are the earth in its primordial days, freezed and awaiting to form.
In Orphic ways, you are the ancestor of the human race. Zeus struck you with lightning and you burnt to ashes. From the ashes, a man was formed.

In a simpler way, you are a hope. From the Almighty.

This is my first letter to you, and might be not the only one. This is my first letter after you sent me so many many letters you slipped underneath my door. Your letters with your drawing inside them. With so many heart shapes, your name and my name.

In this letter, I want to say you thanks. For everything. For every little power you gave me. For every reasons you made for me to keep going and keep dreaming. When the doctor said you were impossible to happen because of your tiny 14mm egg source, you …

Angel

T:
Bunda, Titan pengen punya bidadari

M:
You do have them. They called angels. They are the ones who love you and protect you.

T:
Protect me from bad people, bunda?

M:
Yes, they are.

T:
Oh, I know.

M:
What?

T:
You are my angel, Bunda. You love me and protect me from bad people. I love you!

M:
*teary eyes*

A before-dinner conversation between me and my 5 years old satellite 

To Malicca, about quitting my job

Dear Malicca,
There was once you asked me this question.
"Bunda, kapan sih bunda berhenti bekerja?"

Hmm, it took me a while until I finally answered you.

Baby,
I am working for a reason. Reasons, to be exact.
I am working for you, that is my most and top priority. For my parents, and for me.
I want to give you the best education I can afford.
And in this country, good education costs a lot of money.
And when I am mentioning good education, means not only the system but also the mindset they have to raise children.

I want to take you travel the world.
I want you to see many things, learnt from various source and meet people.
And travel, is not free.

I want to help my parents.
They are old, they are pension, I want to take care of them.
Pay their bills, find them a good maid, i want to give them the best doctor when they got sick one day.
And they are not free.

And there are so many other things I want to do.
I want to paint our house, build a garden and cook the finest foods,
... and they cost …

Nenek Cantik

T:
Bunda, look!

B:
I cannot, I am driving. Ada apa sih emangnya?

T:
Itu, tadi ada nenek-nenek pake baju pink.
Rambutnya putih. Putiiih semua.
Tapi masih cantik, Nda!
Keren, deh!

B:
O, ya? Wah, kok bisa ya nenek-nenek udah tua tapi masih cantik?

T:
Sulap kali, Nda!


- Malicca umur 5 tahun 5 bulan, Bunda umur 33 tahun 6 bulan, dalam perjalanan pagi menuju sekolah -

Sunday left-overs

Enjoying my Sunday, dengan sisaan stroberi dan Divortiare. Nice cheeky book :) 







I am a proud mom

Dear Malicca,

One night you were being a little jerk, seriously. You were like a whirlwind.
You acted harsh to me and Nini,
you were being defensive and said no to most of the things I told you.

You were not like what you usually were. You were different that night.
I wonder what happened. Then I asked you to talk.
Amazingly, you understood what I meant. "Let's talk." I have said.
And we went in to Nini's bed room and we started to talk.

I always amazed with your skill in describing your feelings.
You were only five, but I respected how honest you were about your feelings.

Then you told me scene by scene about how upset you were when your friends did not reckon what you said to them. Yes, it was Bagas the kid next to our house.
You were playing with him when you told him not to hurt himself by playing underneath a truck.
Yes, a truck. But he didn't listen. Then you got upset.
Then you went off, but deep inside you still wanted to play with him.
But you were pissed off.

Malicca,…

The book of eleventh

I am gladly involved in Read 12 books 2012 with two of my friends @ishtarnayyara and @sarskylicious . I started it late, but I managed to get it finished by October and keep reading. Cause if I don't, I am afraid I might stop reading for another hundred years and it will be even harder to drag my eyes on the lines again.

'Malaikat Jatuh' by Clara Ng was my book of eleventh, and yes; it was the highlight of this project.
I bought the book in 2009 (yes, that long!) and I let it sit in dust for more than 2 years (like always... zzzz... zZzzz ).

The book was all about mother's love at its best angle, when mother can be so soft and tender yet can be grim and vicious as well. It remains me of myself as a mother and I could not hold my tears when I read its first and last story. The feeling when I read its last page was the same when I read Larung by Ayu Utami. I felt like gasping for minutes and wished there were at least another page to read saying that the story did not e…

One of those days

Carpe diem, seize the day, atau meraih sukses hari ini dalam bahasa ibu. Yes, this is one of that day. Bukan karena sukses meraih bisnis baru di kantor, bukan karena dapat rejeki nomplok plok plok, bukan karena berhasil melakukan penemuan baru yang breakthrough - amin sih kalau iya - buat aku sukses memetik hari adalah saat semua urusan hari ini lancar. Tepat waktu, jadi bisa berbagi diri dan waktu untuk mereka yang terkasih dan juga sempat untuk memiliki waktu untuk diri sendiri.

Pencapaian yang simpel? Well, ... kalau ukuran simpelnya segampang omong kosong sih ya enggak ya.

Kuncinya ternyata ada di bangun pagi dan tahu kapan untuk ngikutin apa kata hati dan kapan untuk tahu diri. Kita bahas satu-satu ya.

Weekend kemarin sebenernya adalah weekend yang penuh pikiran karena punya PR bikin 3 deck presentasi yang semuanya buat hari Senin sore. Tapi entah kenapa - Ih bohong, gue tau banget kenapa - rasanya malas banget untuk mulai ngerjain. Tiap kali buka komputer, malah ngerjain yang la…